A Reflection of Who I Am


Don’t judge me for what I am about to write. All I can say is this thought has entered my mind and I cannot shake it. I believe God wired us to be spiritually connected not only to other humans, but to animals also. I have read and seen on television many stories of how animals have come to the aid of their masters. This morning as usual I was actively dreaming. This means I could sense every aspect of my dream. My dream sequences instead of inspirational or enjoyable were disturbing. In one dream sequence, I was strangling a woman. Startling? Yes. I could feel the anger I felt toward this person and It disturbed me.

The next thing I knew my cat, Bubba was nudging me to wake up. DSC02768I rolled over and stroked him and he purred. I looked over at the clock and it a little before 4 am. I thought he was ready for me to do our morning ritual of feeding him. This was really unusual. I rolled over and it was my plan to go back to sleep. A few minutes passed and he did something totally out of character for him, he crawled between my husband and me. Of course, Will barked “Get down.” I moved Bubba to my side and told Will, “No there is something wrong with him and I don’t know what it is.” I continued to stroke him and squeeze parts of his body (the cat not my husbands) to see if he reacted in pain. He loved it and purred. I know sometimes cats purr even when they are in pain, so I stayed awake and just watched him. I then got up and gave him catnip and he was satisfied.

I fell back to sleep, but again he came in to nuzzle next to me. This time I got up and went downstairs to check his food bowl. I was at the Stay Focused Writer’s Retreat all day yesterday so I thought, “Maybe his bowl was empty.” No that was not the problem. So back to bed I went.

As I lay there, I began thinking back about the retreat. It was an awesome day. I rekindled relationships with wonderfully talented individuals I met over the years and only communicate through social media. My thoughts when back to the article I wrote in the Stay Focused Magazine entitled “My Sacred Place”. As I read the published article for the first time, I saw what I thought was an awful mistake. At first I thought it was my mistake, and then I thought it was the person who retyped my work. When I pointed it out to Deanna Davis, Publisher and Editor of the Stay Focused Magazine, she corrected me and said I had written the wrong scripture reference. I immediately realized she was correct and it disturbed me that I missed that mistake when I read it over before submitting it.

My Sacred Place” is an article I wrote about creating a sacred place in your home or office where you could go to pray or meditate before beginning your day. I tell how each morning I begin my day with a blank 8 ½ x 14 blank sheet of paper. It covers a tv tray I have next to my workstation. I write at the top in the center, Matthew 6:33 “First seek the Kingdom of God and His Righteousness and all these things shall be given unto you.” I have been doing this for months, in my article I wrote Matt 6:22. As I reviewed my papers, I seemed to switch to Matt 6:22 on March 8th. I continued writing the wrong scripture reference, but the correct passage. I did it inconsistently and never realized the mistake.

This morning, I acknowledge a major shift occurring in my spirit. It’s a good one, yet a scary one. I am ready to step out of my comfort zone and expand my territory as an author, publisher and public speaker. I believe my dream was my inner fight with my self who wants to stay contained in the world God had led me through. A world where I serve Him through the work I do with my clients. Even so, I believe God now has me on a new path to do more on a grander scale. I also believe he wants me to remain humble and authentic as I pursue this new path.

Matt. 6:22 “The light of the body is the eye: if therefore thine eye be single, thy whole body shall be full of light.” I researched this passage this morning and came across a wonderful explanation by Pastor John Piper “The good eye is a single eye. It has one Treasure. God. When that happens in your life, you are full of light.

So even though it looked like I was so totally off the mark, what I didn’t know, was God yet again was giving me my marching orders. As I desire to expand my territory, I must also desire to only serve Him and not money; and to continue to store my treasures in Heaven and not here on earth where they can be eaten by moth and rusted So my passages each morning have expanded to Matt 6:19-24. Ironically, in my book, “Joy Comes Through the Mourning”, I write how I read each passage that matched my birthday, 6/24. Matt 6:24 says “No one can serve two masters. For you will hate one and love the other; you will be devoted to one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money.” It is a great passage for everyone to focus on.

Now back to being spiritually connected to my cats. I believe Bubba sensed my discomfort as I slept. He was being protective and would not allow me to go back to sleep. I am so happy he woke me and I was moved to think about Matthew 6:22 and its significance to me. God reminded me this morning, as long as my spiritual eyes are on him, he will light my path and he will continue to covered with love, joy and everlasting peace.

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