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Spiritually Connected to My Cats


Don’t judge me for what I am about to write. All I can say is this thought has entered my mind and I cannot shake it. I believe God wired us to be spiritually connected not only to other humans, but to animals also. I have read and seen on television many stories of how animals have come to the aid of their masters. This morning as usual I was actively dreaming. This means I could sense every aspect of my dream. My dream sequences instead of inspirational or enjoyable were disturbing. In one dream sequence, I was strangling a woman. Startling? Yes. I could feel the anger I felt toward this person and It disturbed me.

The next thing I knew my cat, Bubba was nudging me to wake up. DSC02768I rolled over and stroked him and he purred. I looked over at the clock and it a little before 4 am. I thought he was ready for me to do our morning ritual of feeding him. This was really unusual. I rolled over and it was my plan to go back to sleep. A few minutes passed and he did something totally out of character for him, he crawled between my husband and me. Of course, Will barked “Get down.” I moved Bubba to my side and told Will, “No there is something wrong with him and I don’t know what it is.” I continued to stroke him and squeeze parts of his body (the cat not my husbands) to see if he reacted in pain. He loved it and purred. I know sometimes cats purr even when they are in pain, so I stayed awake and just watched him. I then got up and gave him catnip and he was satisfied.

I fell back to sleep, but again he came in to nuzzle next to me. This time I got up and went downstairs to check his food bowl. I was at the Stay Focused Writer’s Retreat all day yesterday so I thought, “Maybe his bowl was empty.” No that was not the problem. So back to bed I went.

As I lay there, I began thinking back about the retreat. It was an awesome day. I rekindled relationships with wonderfully talented individuals I met over the years and only communicate through social media. My thoughts when back to the article I wrote in the Stay Focused Magazine entitled “My Sacred Place”. As I read the published article for the first time, I saw what I thought was an awful mistake. At first I thought it was my mistake, and then I thought it was the person who retyped my work. When I pointed it out to Deanna Davis, Publisher and Editor of the Stay Focused Magazine, she corrected me and said I had written the wrong scripture reference. I immediately realized she was correct and it disturbed me that I missed that mistake when I read it over before submitting it.

My Sacred Place” is an article I wrote about creating a sacred place in your home or office where you could go to pray or meditate before beginning your day. I tell how each morning I begin my day with a blank 8 ½ x 14 blank sheet of paper. It covers a tv tray I have next to my workstation. I write at the top in the center, Matthew 6:33 “First seek the Kingdom of God and His Righteousness and all these things shall be given unto you.” I have been doing this for months, in my article I wrote Matt 6:22. As I reviewed my papers, I seemed to switch to Matt 6:22 on March 8th. I continued writing the wrong scripture reference, but the correct passage. I did it inconsistently and never realized the mistake.

This morning, I acknowledge a major shift occurring in my spirit. It’s a good one, yet a scary one. I am ready to step out of my comfort zone and expand my territory as an author, publisher and public speaker. I believe my dream was my inner fight with my self who wants to stay contained in the world God had led me through. A world where I serve Him through the work I do with my clients. Even so, I believe God now has me on a new path to do more on a grander scale. I also believe he wants me to remain humble and authentic as I pursue this new path.

Matt. 6:22 “The light of the body is the eye: if therefore thine eye be single, thy whole body shall be full of light.” I researched this passage this morning and came across a wonderful explanation by Pastor John Piper “The good eye is a single eye. It has one Treasure. God. When that happens in your life, you are full of light.

So even though it looked like I was so totally off the mark, what I didn’t know, was God yet again was giving me my marching orders. As I desire to expand my territory, I must also desire to only serve Him and not money; and to continue to store my treasures in Heaven and not here on earth where they can be eaten by moth and rusted So my passages each morning have expanded to Matt 6:19-24. Ironically, in my book, “Joy Comes Through the Mourning”, I write how I read each passage that matched my birthday, 6/24. Matt 6:24 says “No one can serve two masters. For you will hate one and love the other; you will be devoted to one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money.” It is a great passage for everyone to focus on.

Now back to being spiritually connected to my cats. I believe Bubba sensed my discomfort as I slept. He was being protective and would not allow me to go back to sleep. I am so happy he woke me and I was moved to think about Matthew 6:22 and its significance to me. God reminded me this morning, as long as my spiritual eyes are on him, he will light my path and he will continue to covered with love, joy and everlasting peace.

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A New Beginning…Once Again!


Saturday Morning, April 11, 2015

Last night, I couldn’t sleep. My mind was on our move. We are leaving our large home with four bedrooms a 2 ½ bathrooms to a much smaller home; 3 bedrooms and 1 bathroom built in 1950. The actual year Willie and I were born. This summer we both turn 65, another major adjustment.  Our new house, beautifully and humbly laid out, is sufficient for my husband and me at this time in our lives.

Even so, my heart sank as we returned from inspecting our new home and walked into the expansive living area of our current home. It hit me, we will barely be able to take anything with us. Where the rooms are spacious with a family room, living room, and dining room; our new home will have a tiny area for the kitchen table and chairs. The upside, there is a beautifully bright family room, an addition extending the living space of the small Cape Cod. I suffered the thought of getting rid of 90% of our “stuff”. This spacious house allowed me, a literary pack rat, to shelve my books and papers. Bookcases and shelves that allowed me to stockpile folders, papers and books. Open areas where I line up bags and cubes of clothes which cannot fit into the limited closet space in this large home. And we currently have a two car garage where our new home will barely accommodate our two cars in the compact car off-street parking spaces in the front of the house.

After our daughter went out with friends, and my mother-in-law and husband went on to bed, I went out to our garage and began bringing in boxes and piles of papers. These papers and boxes contained research papers and articles written by me. I had to begin the process of eliminating unnecessary stuff. I was successful in filling two lawn size trash bags of papers and retired to my bed.

As I lay there staring at the ceiling, my mind went back to the tiny new home and the limited storage space. In my anxiety, I recognized I would not easily fall asleep, so I rose and went down to the kitchen to make some Tension Tamer tea laced with Noni juice. As I sat down to the table, I spoke to God about how I was feeling. I was moved to get something to write down my thoughts. I knew this would also ease my anxiety to get the words out of my mind and onto paper. That is exactly how I have over the years accumulated so many piles of papers. It is my way of cleansing my mind and spirit of negative thoughts.

I went to the box where I placed my spiral notebooks and returned to the kitchen table. The first page in the book were notes from my church’s 2005 Watch Night Service titled, “May The Source Be With You.” Pastor Holland spoke from Jonah 1 and Isaiah 43:16-21. Our theme for 2006 was “New Beginning In The Lord”.

I turned the page and BAM…”You’ve got to let go of the former things.” Isaiah 43:18 and “…I am making a new thing” Isaiah 43:19. It is just like God to lead me to the one book in the box where he could direct my path for this move. I thanked him, finished drinking my tea and returned to bed. I slept very soundly until Tank, our six year old pit bull, needed to go out. I easily fell back to sleep and woke up rested and ready to continue the purge.

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Footnote: As I was typing my actual notes from that sermon, the Lord reminded me this was the night I gave testimony of a year prior, my New Years was much different. My late husband Donald had passed away December 16, 2003. I wasn’t a member of Green Grove or even attending a church. I had grown in the Lord dramatically through 2004 and my life was on a much more positive track. He also reminded me, it was the night my husband, Willie Richard Smart, Jr. crossed over to shake my hand. He told me he understood what I had been going through and if there was anything he could do to help me, to just ask. You see, Willie’s wife had passed away three months earlier. He was still grieving, and understood we were members of an elite club. We did not know God had orchestrated that meeting. Four-and-a-half years later, we were married in that same sanctuary.That night was a new beginning for the two of us, and God wanted us to put our former lives behind us because He had a totally new beginning charted out for our future.

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